Now tht I think about it, I don't think I ever really knew myself as a kid either. Sure I had friends and buddies and aquaintances, but I never did anything outside of the classroom. I remember being in my head all the time, too. I rarely said anything to other people. Always stuck my nose in books or my Gameboy. Even at that Islandwood trip, when one of my roommates asked me, "Why don't you talk that much?" I replied, "I don't have anything to say." I remember distinctly not having a personality like that. But it neither sucked or was I content with it because I was too young to understand social dynamics and interactions with people. Maybe I really did have autism of some kind?
I feel like, if I had kniwn about college when I was a kid, I would have probably liked to apply to skip middle and high school. Like Daria.
Maybe the reasn why school exists is to just put you with kids your age and to teach you how to be social.